Your whole life you hear about God bringing people out but
you will never truly understand the power of Jesus Christ until you are brought
to a low point in your life, when you feel like you are completely alone and
have no one to turn to and no one to comfort you. Suddenly, your relationship
with God moves from claiming to be a Christian to living like you’ve been
redeemed.
About a week ago I realized that I haven’t shared my
personal testimony on the blog, and to continue with the vulnerability thread
of my last post, I decided that I should share it unabashedly, because God has
been entirely too good for me not share it. I’ve never had any desire to share
this particular, very personal chapter of my life, however, I feel that now enough
time has passed for me to really reflect, open up and hopefully encourage
someone in the process.
At the close of a certain chapter in my life, I found myself
ecstatic. Life was moving along just as I had hoped it would. Everything that I
planned for my life had come to pass in the best way possible. I was driven. I
was focused. I was excited about the many possibilities and opportunities. I
had so many plans for my life, so many dreams, so many goals that I wanted to
accomplish.
Seemingly out of nowhere, several serious situations arose
in my life. I can honestly say that I have never felt more hopeless and
disoriented in my entire life. All of my plans and goals seemed to crumble in
an instant. My life took an incredibly unexpected turn. I remember feeling so
purposeless, so completely void of understanding. I can still remember staying
up night after night crying out to God for some semblance of direction. I was
emotionally wounded and trying desperately to make sense of the turn my life
had taken. Yet, I can truly say that I am thankful that God took me through
that particular season of my life. I have realized that sometimes we must
endure seasons of breaking. I have found that when you find yourself broken,
confused and purposeless that God will pour into you in an unprecedented way
that will leave you in awe.
Sometimes you spend your whole life hearing about the power
of Jesus without truly understanding it. Sometimes God allows you to go through
things for the sole purpose of building your trust and personal relationship
with Him. I can tell you that from experience I know that God is undoubtedly
the Prince of Peace because I have felt peace in the midst of confusion and
pain. I know that God is the mender of broken hearts because He made me whole
again. I know that God is the lover of my soul because He wrapped his arms
around me when I felt worthless. I know that God is the sole answer for any
circumstance because He has proved it to me time and time again.
Jesus is the greatest thing that can ever happen to you. I
promise you this: If you allow yourself to trust God without hesitation He will
take your relationship with Him to a level that you never dreamed was possible.
In spite of challenging situations, God was with me. He has never left me. He
gave me new life again and that, my friends, is something that I hope I will
never stop celebrating.
I decided last week to share this intimate story with you
because I want you to know that God is so real and that He is, as the Bible so
eloquently puts it, “ever present in times of trouble”. My life currently
reflects that of an individual who has been redeemed. Not just a Pastor’s
daughter who has witnessed God move in the lives of others, but instead one who
has experienced His love to an insane, almost unreal degree. God is so good. We
say this often. It has become a cliché of sorts. But, God truly has been so
good to me.
You will never fully understand the love of Jesus Christ
until you’ve reached a point of desperation. The phrase, “God is love” has no
meaning until he has given you renewed purpose and passion.
Choose Jesus.
“All is new in the Savior I am found. This is living now.”
Thank you for sharing this!!
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